Saturday, April 23, 2005 / 8:56 AM
dreams are not those that we see with our eyes, for
dreams are wat the
mind and soul see.okie dun really know whether that makes sense or not.but thats juz that..Something of which i stumbled upon today.I wasn't gonna blog today,but all of sudden i felt some feelings that i shldn't and thought i should write it down instead of just bottling it all up.
I actually feel a
surge as such of
missing someone,miss the hugs n kisses,the sweet nothings..well aLL of a sudden i miss him
aLOt..seriously i dont know when i will kick him off my mind,after all he did..Haiz..well maybe somethings are juz meant to be where they are.and maybe i have to get it straight that he was
once part of me and i
cant simply remove him out of me..sO much so that i feel like LoOking at his letters,sms and photos.Hmmz controlling myself sOO darn hard manz.
Sometimes when i see the problems and troubles around me,i come to see that mines juz a minor teeny weeny problem and that is when i am to tell myself to let it all go,hahaz however when i m all alone,sitting in my rOOm memories just flash back and now it seems that my lOss is a great one.In my own world its a huge problem,in the real world,its juz another ordinary problem..qns still run in my mind on why did it have to be me, when will he tell the truth..wHy was it aLL
fake..and answer i can get,however i chOose not to seek the answers for the fear that the
truth might hurt. I think i have somewhat decided that i shall juz leave it as it is and swallow down the fact that i will never have the answers. actually i have sOO much more stuff to write down,but i think this shall be enough for today??
anywayz on a lighter more cheerful note,going for class chalet later in the evening..unfortunately the response is kinda bad,but i feel that u guys shld keep to ya promises, u guys were sOO enthu of turning up and now whats this manz??well watever it is,we gonna have fun..and the rest hope u guys have fun in watever u guys are doIng..
Okie i gtg now..wanna go and catch my winks..nitey nite.. =D
Thursday, April 21, 2005 / 10:43 AM
It is the first week of sch holidays and i am starting to enJoy it..
Wee..nO books..OKie i mean IT bOoks for this few weeks..
Went for debates yesterdae n has usual had fun..
Gonna start planning for the class chalet which is on this sUnday..I am suppose to
get all the paper plates and stuf.However din expect many people to backout and say they can't stay overnight..HOPE that doesnt happen for the BBq.. =)
My life has been great this few days..I nO loNger feel the tingle of sadness that alwayz lingered with me =)..Great feeling..Okie maybe its just because i aint felt like this for a way Long time..
aNyways i gtg..BLoggie again sOme other time =)
Sunday, April 17, 2005 / 10:05 PM
Holidaes finally made its way, examz are OVER but then i still don't feel too good.
Definitely feel relieved that the everyday studying till wee hours in the morning is over for now,however i still feel suffocated deep inside..I really need to release it all out but still searching for an avenue to do so?aNywayz cried abit the last few days.
Coz i missed sumthing,sumone..actually i realise why the reason why i shed tears,its because i miss the tender,loving,care of that sumone..hahaz maybe the soul reason why i was in a relationshipwas cause he showed me lots of love and care?well guess i have to stick with the fact,that people come and go..Just hope that someday i shall know the reason why...I m feeling sOO freaking bOred at home..Have to start lOoking for stuff to do to occupy the free mind..
Sunday, April 03, 2005 / 1:11 AM
It has been sometime since i have bLogged.Its examz next week and sOOn i m gOnna be leaping to another year of studies if all goes well.
I actually dont really know what and how i am feeling now..Sometimes i feel a surge of happiness and in the next instance i feel Lost.After what i heard from one of my best friend, I feel i have started to let it aLL go...But..It simply doesn't juz sHoo awayz..The memOries stiLL fLy back,screaming at me telling me to stOp and to hOld on back..But seriously..You
HAVE to Go!! I need my Life back.. U have Gotten urs and can I have
mine Now??
Hahaz i believe its all up to the mind to do it..the heart is already nUmb..weLL..aNd nOw
sHOo awayz please?
Finally i can taste my life once again.. I missed it sOO much..Hahaz HoPe it becOmes better..
Love is in the Air.. But not for me.. Wonder wHy..maybe perhaps i m LoOking for that
speciaL one. The gUy of mY heart??whEre are u??hehez sOund so despO huhz..weLL i m not.. But aint it nice to have
warm arms to fall intO..magical
eyes to stare intO and sweEt hug to be feLt...
WeLL maybe it aint my time yet.. But i Shall
wait..