Tuesday, May 31, 2005 / 10:52 PM
Out-Of-TunE
I feel soo out of tune this few days..Its like i get angered at practically lots of stuff the past week.Its like if you open your mouth and as the words start flowing out..and if i get pissed at what you are saying i will just literally start firing back at you..Hmmz anger management bad..Well most be coz of the raging hormones..and of ya i m a Libraian..So i guess the balance muz have tilted off side.Hahaz well thats that for now..Just learning how to control my lethal tongue for awhile now since i dont know how to use it at the appropriate time.
*ScH*
"YUppie SchOOls started" hmmz modules are interesting...Okay just that i have to freshen up sum of my past yr work..aint gonna blog the detailed stuff here.
Basically i am pissed at lots of stuff..Pised
Monday, May 30, 2005 / 9:14 PM
DeJa vu'
Just had one week of Debates..One week my life was to and fro to NTU..Mostly reaching home pass 12 midnight.and spending my whole day running up n down finding place to prep and then yack for 7 mins for each debates round.Kinda fun experience.Met many friends..FrOm malaysia,philipines and so on..Hahaz did anyone noe that monks can debate?there was a monk frm a thai university in the tournament.and yup he was in his orange robe.I seriously wished i had a chanced to see the monk debate.but unfortunately they din break..heard their team was very good and eloquent..sob sob..Hmmz ya..there was this guy in the tournament..was in the same team as the monk that lOOked a CARbOn cOPy of my ex.Hahaz those eyes,the chin and the smile but just that he was abit older.hahaz it was like a deja'vu..Most of the time i was stealing glances at him coz i cant believe the significant resemblance.Scary but yet heart warming la.thank god he didnt scream at me for somewhat staring at him.Common i was just staring innocently..cant be blamed ritez?seeing sumone soo alike.. :D
Oh ya..one of the nite wen i was walking down the stairs at 1am i slipped n fell on my bum!!!and it hurt like hell..was on the verge of tears :S..hahaz anywayz today was the first day of scH.nth much tHough..Oh ya..was walking along fC5 to sac..they were having cca fair n guessed what some of the cca promoters tot i was a yr1 student and offered me to browse their pamphalet..I FELt Soo embrassed..i just said i m in yR2 n sped off..hmmz they were like laughing..soo sad manz.
Okie..thats all for now :D
Tuesday, May 24, 2005 / 8:34 AM
+ the war between the heart and the mind+
my mind and heart are at war..i didnt realise so until i was spending 5 hrs of my day idling my way through..hmmz wat can i say..the restless mind at work when i aint restless..i seriously dunnoe wat to do and wat not to do..i am starting to love this person soo much that
Friday, May 20, 2005 / 6:39 AM
~DoWn~
i think i have reached the high time lOw both emotionally and physically..PhYsically because i have been having INTENSe debating sessions in the light of preparation for the ASIANS debate this coming tue..:D
actually i feel kinda scared abit..but well maybe coz its my first time la..
emOtiOnallY down
hahaz coz common i cant even bring myself to say it..hmmz haiz..the way i m feeling rite now..i just wish i can run into the arms of sumone who can provide me the comfort n love i need...haiz
Monday, May 16, 2005 / 10:08 AM
Read this off the net too and found it damn true..the person managed to capture everything that needs to be said in a very nice and smart way..so here it is
~ruLes of LoVe~
Love the girl in your heart, not in your mind.If you base your relationship on feelings,it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings.Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.
Love her for who she is.Don't even think about changing any bit about her.6 billion people in this world &6 billion different personalities.She'sspecial & she will stay that way.You change any part of her,you'll change her forever.Don't substitute her for anyone else,they are just unique in their own ways.
Love her whole-heartedly.She sacrificed a lot for youso you'd better really treassure her.She could have just got up& date a so much more dashingguy in town but she chose you instead all because of love.So love her guys, not play with her.
Don't just get the girl to beg you to stay orwhatsoever. If you're with her, love her.Don't cause a strain in the relationship,you'll end up loving each other out of pityor charity, that's not respecting love at all.Respect love the way it is &everything will be the best it can be.I've been there & I know how it feels.
Don't expect perfection from her.She's the only one in the world &she's done the best she could.
Like another girl while you're in arelationship?Then I think it's time you remain single for a while.Don't go around breaking girls' hearts,it's the most tragic thing to do.
Tell the truth, never hide anything from her.If you want her to tell you everything,do the same.Don't go calling other girls "honey" or "darling",how would it feel if your girl calls other guysthe same way? Be faithful
Socialise only when you're single.You socialise & flirt around is to getthe girl of your dreams.Get it over when she's already yours,don't ask for more.
It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible.Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her.Be realistic, she's human &she lives life just like you.Something sweet &
Never promise her that you'll love her foreverbecause your forever might end the next day.Love her as if each day is the last.simple always get the job done.Money doesn't exist between couples,it's the love.
Sweet talks only apply for singles,not for attached guys.Do that & you'll really break your girl's heart.
Promise her & make sure you never break it.Swear to her & make sure you keep it.Pledge your love to her & her alone.
Loving her is giving her your heart to break itbut trusting her not to. Instead, she'll cherish it &protect it. That's love. Give her your heart, yourlife, your everything.
Never, ever walk out of her life.She won't just cry her heart out &carry on living as per normal, she'd die.It her heart that you've broken,how would you ever know how she feels?
Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory.Don't leave her once you've won her love.Love her all the way till the end of time,love her till marriage,love her till old age,love her till death.If you can love her till the end of time,you've earned the honor &respect for you've truly loved her.
She chose you becauseshe believes that you can fulfil your promise.Win her heart & love her over
Remember,the girl isn't a trophy for display,she's someone to love,not to show off to your "friends".
Stay humble yet proud that she's the one for you.Respect her for the way she is,never despise her & never mistreat her,never even think of toying with her.
Happen to chance upon this when i was surfing the net..interesting stuff to read n ponder on..yup
~Truth~
if a girl cries in front of u,
it means that she couldnt take it anymore.
If u take her hand,she would stay with u for the rest of ur life;
If u let her go, she couldnt go back to being herself anymore.
A gal wont cry easily,
only when she love u the most,
she put down her ego.
Guys, if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please hold her hands firmly,
coz she's the one who is willing to stay with u 4 for therestof ur life.
if a gal cries bcoz of u,
please dont give her up,
maybe bcoz of ur decision,
u ruin her life.
And if She cries not because she is weak,
She cries not bcoz she wants sympathy or pity,
She cries, Because crying silently is no longer possible,
the pain, hurt n agony have bcome too big a burden to be kept inside.
If a gal cries her heart out to u,
And all because of u,
Its time to look back on wat u have done,
Only u will know the answer to it.
Yar thats that..
Sunday, May 15, 2005 / 8:25 PM
~sick~
hmmz seems that the doc medicine havent really worked and that my $25 absolutely POOFed awayz..having asthma now and my nose is likened to nigara fall..OntoP Of that i m covered with vicks vapour rub :S hahaz lucky it helps feeling freaking shiverish tOO..hahaz no one to cuddle me warm..how sad..okie okie..
Besides that i have been pretty pissed by someone...The person seems to be flaunting with the art of scarasm soo well that he should win the noble peace prize for best scarasm!hahaz and his scarasm overealms him that he forgets to hold back his tongue..here me trying ma best to be nice but my kindness taken for granted..well thats that..
~lessons of life~
........ i m lost of thoughts now.. will end on to this part sOOn... :/
Thursday, May 12, 2005 / 10:58 PM
~~ThOugHts~
I seem to be a very disorientated gal this few days.Dun even know that i am feeling at times and if i do i aint sure why i am feeling that way too...hahaz many its just the imbalanced hormOnes and the super free mind that wonders.My days have been simply me to work and school for debating sessions..Feel soo bad that i totally sucked last session,and i have a competition coming up :S..hmmz must buck up..
Oh ya and as usual i m hooked to another song.this time its ALMOST here by Delta goodRem and Brian McFadden..Its a super nice song and the lyrics are cool tOo...
finally got to know what class i am in for yR2 coming next semester and know that i have great friends in ma class tOO..in search of finding more...cant believe that i am in yR2 already..It seemed like i just tOOk my o'levels just yesterdae..hahaz being cliche here..But seriously its hard to believe that i made it through the first yR of pOLy...LooKing forward to semester very much..
*DeeP tOts*
been having many deep tots but aint sure how to pen it down.wonder why somethings are happening and whats the real meaning behind ones step and actions.everysince that incident i haven been able to trust people that often.its like wen something happens or some sort like that i start questioning myself,is it for real or is it all FAke?Hmmz i shall just leave it here..before i start writing any more crap.. :D
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 / 11:11 PM
! songs
did you know that songs can affect how you feel?Okie i am asking a lame question here..
Heard Stevie Wonder's I just called to say i love you and it brought memories of my childhood days.Those days when i was a small little petite gal running here and there.Remembered the times when my dad will switch on Class 95 fm at night and my mom,dad,my baby bro and me will just sit cuddling each other and listen to these love songs.Though ya at that point of time a 7 year old kid mite not understand the meaning of the lyrics but i just fell in love with all the oldies.We would listen in and the soft melodies will make us sleep..
Today when i heard the song again, i listened to the lyrics closely and it sure is meaningful and it triggered off tears..Made me remember of the times when i will just call someone and when he asked why i would say "i just called to say i love you"..hahaz crazy me..actually i thought before that i should stop penning down thoughts of him but than again when i think of it,i just cant help it but want to pour it all out.. So here goes..
I MISS YOU like crazy even though i know the possibility that u neber did love me.
I CANT forget the sweet time we had together..
I MISS your VOICE!!
I MISS the nites when we juz chat abt everything.
I MISS your touch..
I MISS your scent..
and the list can carry on but its enuf here.
haiz snapping back to reality i know i can never have all of this ever again from you again.but seriously i miss you..actually i pray that sumday i will bump into you and all i will do is look into your eyes and then look awayz.. I find myself somewhat a crazy gal,missing you soo badly after what shit you have done to me.hahaz well i m one of a kind maybe??hahaz okie.. thats that..
Monday, May 09, 2005 / 10:44 PM
Alive!!
Okay..That mite sound strange but what i mean is that i feel that i am myself again.For the past few days i found myself lost.Lost in a world of i dont really know what.I felt so insecure and weak and often times or not i felt as though my legs are gonna fail me and i will just sip into the ground.ironically after having "this" nap earlier in the afternoon i feel all the woos gone.Okie..so checked..i am the "su"i used to be. Made a trip to the doc earlier coz aint feeling that gd,$25 just poofed awayz...must start looking after my health more carefully
!Friends
Bumped into R just now.And he complimented me by saying i grew taller..*Claps Claps* let me see, it has been sometime since i have heard anyone saying that i have grown..YeAh! feel soo happy now..we had a chat under the void deck and then went our separate ways== me to the doc and he went home.
!Life
Let me see what i have installed for this week.. *Hmmmmmzzz** Okie i have work and debates.Making the video for debates is interesting but taxing.I have got to say the motion is somewhat hard to get into a higher level debate.There are alot of fine lines that we ought to be careful of.I hope we would be able to string in some freshies who want to explore the "world of debates" notice i put it in ""..Trust me,debates is like my second home.and ITS NOT FOR GEEKS.its a cool cca. which puts ur tickle glands on,however besides all that play we do have intense training..oH wait..LOoks like i m promoting debates here...well yar...i love debates both the cca and the whole team manz..*muacks* ps..todae debates session was hilarious..cats going to schOOl...kehehez...
Saturday, May 07, 2005 / 7:02 AM
I just broke a guys heart again..and this time its really serious.I shant go into the details but i did it because i was provokes soo badly..He hates me now and i feel bad but well i try apologising but he din seem to get my apology and instead made me feel bad..Well thats that..
~!Work!~
works cOOl and easy..only that i finish you rather fast and alwayz get to leave earlier--> earlier = lesser pay..okie well thats fair... i work less too..
~!Life!~
still seeking for the time i can just sit on the beach and lOOk up and see the stars at night..wen will it come..ok
Monday, May 02, 2005 / 2:11 PM
just had a long weekend.didnt have work everysince friday till today.Anywayz just a little update of my life.Got into The NTU debates by default coz ma team members and me turned down the Australs debates..So i guess got to train hard for NTU,just hoping that we wont get thrashed that early in the rounds..Have to fork out $210 for it.haiz..let me see..besides that, my braces wire slipped out of place while i was fighting with a chicken wing and unfortunately the dentist wil be in on next wed..guess i have just got to wait till then..Lesson learned..dun fight with chicken wings...LAME..
oN Saturday i attended a residental event at my estate.Kinda fun event with lots of games...VERY kiddish games but just enjoyed seeing the kids play..their endless vibe of energy,i cant remember the last i had soo much energy.anywayz got wooed by a grp of guys..used to get wooed by them b4 but it had long stOpped due to the fact that the onli places i spent my life was home and sch..on that day happened to stumbled upon them as they were mending the game stalls. This guy came to me and offered me balloons that were shaped into a flOwer..sOO cute..i said thanks and rejected them..Hmmz..they are sOO cute manz, just maybe ard 14 or15 years of age..still so yOUng..anywayz its just their way of having fun..me dun mind at all...makes me wonder when my real love will come..thats just a thought..
Mother's Day is drawing freaking near and let me see...I M CASHLESS..was intending to get my mom a cOOk boOk that she had been eyeing but i havent got my pay,wonder when i will ever get it.. :) its okie, i shall find a way..remember the saying when there's a will there's a way?shall blog again laterz at nite since got Lotsa to say..that is if i come back from work unshagged.. yuP..
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