Sunday, April 09, 2006 / 11:15 PM
feeling jealous for something that wasnt mine to begin with. i have gotta learn to stop it all. Its not mine, will neber be mine and neber was mine in the first place. i sincerely feel that i was kinda very stoopid individual to do what i did.next time i gotta learn to be not soo helpful and nice anymore coz its not all worth it sunita.. nevertheless its all over and part of me can proudly say i m over it. claps for me. gOd indeed has many ways manifested to show me things that i need to see in order to realise the pain of eternity. as i read words of the passage i being to realise ur evil doing and my stoopid following. that sounded wrong la..but i m just to lazy.
anywayz someone has been touching places of my heart that i m afraid to reveal.. not knowing what to do, i choose to keep low and try to conceal. maybe it mite work, maybe it mite be. but till then its had to reveal.
places of my heart u touched to feel
places of my heart u played to reel
places of my heart _____________
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i am actually lost for words to continue the poem, if the words do come to mind, i will feel them in.meanwhile i just got lotsa going on in me that i guess enuf blogging fer today.:)
feeling jealous for something that wasnt mine to begin with. i have gotta learn to stop it all. Its not mine, will neber be mine and neber was mine in the first place. i sincerely feel that i was kinda very stoopid individual to do what i did.next time i gotta learn to be not soo helpful and nice anymore coz its not all worth it sunita.. nevertheless its all over and part of me can proudly say i m over it. claps for me. gOd indeed has many ways manifested to show me things that i need to see in order to realise the pain of eternity. as i read words of the passage i being to realise ur evil doing and my stoopid following. that sounded wrong la..but i m just to lazy.
anywayz someone has been touching places of my heart that i m afraid to reveal.. not knowing what to do, i choose to keep low and try to conceal. maybe it mite work, maybe it mite be. but till then its had to reveal.
places of my heart u touched to feel
places of my heart u played to reel
places of my heart _____________
................................................................
i am actually lost for words to continue the poem, if the words do come to mind, i will feel them in.meanwhile i just got lotsa going on in me that i guess enuf blogging fer today.:)
Friday, April 07, 2006 / 8:24 PM
finally blogger page appeared right on my IE. wonder what was bugging it. anywayz i have been going through alot lately, alot as in mentally. I have been thrown into an emotional turmoil that i have to take very cautious step to ensure what i do is ultimately what i really seek.haven been in touch with the love angel for long time, and start to feel abit out of place without it.well i guess thats just need getting used to. besides that. some unforseen circumstances occurred at debates. Let me make it short and sweet. U DUN respect me, too bad neither will I. sometimes ppl are soo caught up into their own super ego that they chose to happily or infact stupidly if i would put it, to realise that they aint the only souls roaming on earth. i have much tocomment about that but i think its not worth to feel up my blog space with someone else idiotic actions.besides all that.my heart is kinda jumpy right now. its afaird to admit to feelings of one sort. wonder why, images of the prematured past often time shine infront of me.. guess theres got to be a reason all these is happening. i will have to see to it. Oh ya.i really want the degree in psychology all so badly. trust me, i caught oprah on tv today, and today's show was abt psychology. boy did it make me feel so wanna pursue it all the more. aint gonna go into the details.i guess that's all for now. ohya. i hope some ppl learn to cooperate on certain issues.
Monday, April 03, 2006 / 10:48 PM
hmmz i am damn bored and was reading this filmfare magazine and my eyes caught this picture..for those who know me very well, u noe why i picked this photo out. for those that dont might think that i took it because maybe the guy looks hot or muscular. hahaz well thats not the case. it reason is because of his goatee. actually i m a craze lover over goatee and kinda get gaga wen i see damn nice goatees..hahaz anyways...this guy here got the one of the nicest goatee i have ever seen. its is soo neat and WOAHZ!! get it...wOahz..gosh, soo woahz..hmmz look at how it curves and
ahh. its just simply woahz la. i cant praise it anymore, if not people mite think i m an obsolute crazy freak. hahaz just a tiny wish though...my guy whoever he will be, if only he had this kinda goatee. i will go gaga manz :S
ARGH SCREAMS
when will it all stop. when will it all go awayz. common i am sick and tired of longing and missing and giving a fucking shit abt the matters of the heart. heard it. I M SICK and TIREd. hayoh how cld i be soo freaking naive, so freaking demure. SOOO stoopid.hell manz. till today i long for you and wen i read certain stuff my blood just can't resist but start to boil. why did it all have to happen. why cant i just be a normal human with minimal satisfaction??? when will i learn to put a stop to it!!!!!!!!! hello is that toooo much to ask for?? hello hello? why is it that i alwayz have to endure hurt soo badly wen its already known i cant handle hurt all too gd. people often say i put up a rather gd mask to mask it all up...but ladies and gentleman i am tired. i need to be free from all this. wtf la...absence make the heart grow fonder. love can take its shit effect and pack itself up and throw itself to some far awayz island far awayz from me.I mean it. i cant imagine i tolerated it soo long. i am soo dumb manz. hahaz wat the hell la. Hey mR i miss you sooo much..but i guess thats just me.. stoopidly missing...haiz...i cant believe that i have such ill-fate with love. haiz...haiz...haiz... hmmz well this is all i can do i guess. COMPLAIN and COMPLAIN..hahaz life. nice life.wonderful life. aaaaarrrgggh
i m sure people reading this mite think i m one bloody ass that complains herself off. i m sorry manz.
take my shoe fer a dae or two, u will understand why then :)
wonder if theres any potion or wat-so-ever that wen u drink it, it completely erases every emotions u have and start afresh?? hmmz well me looking fer anything of that sort. if u have any..pls recommend me some people. i neeeeeedddd it badly.
ARGH SCREAMS
Sunday, April 02, 2006 / 8:39 AM
SOmetimes its worth falling sick i think. Because when you are sick, u kinda forget all the other pain , sorrows and regrets that you have deep inside you coz u are simply too weak and worried about ya health. hahaz thats what i feel. wen i was sick for the past 2 or 3 weeks. i pushed my emotions and feelings aside coz i was freaking out at the cough i was having and now that the cough is all better. things that i managed to push awayz start rushing in again. why is it alwayz the case?lately my mind's has been running through events of the past, i wonder to myself how could i resist soo much of embrassement and tolerate soo much of pain and sorrow? hahaz maybe thats just the speciality in me. but one things for SURe now. it aint gonna happen again. no matter how much i love another being, i am gonna see what are the pros n cons first b4 i really devote myself to him. hahaz this time is love fer the love in sunita and not fer the need in sunita.eeks i think i am toking crap here. but hell la.anywayz i shall be back. just got up from sleep :S
Saturday, April 01, 2006 / 10:48 PM
Damn looking at things of the past sure does hurt a hell lot. I cant believe i WAS SOO naive manz. I cant believe i was soo Blinded by something i never really know the meaning of to date. LOVE. why do i complain soo much, i wonder. maybe because i see my life being not soo simple compared to many others around me. but then again its wrong to compare and yet it inevitably human nature. Okie lets see hows my life been soo far..I have been sick with this wonderful cough for close to 3 weeks. gee what nice way to enjoy my holidays. well i guess the stress of school made me this sick. Latest update on my heart. It feels for no one or at least it chooses not to feel anymore.Yesh i cant lie that i dont long for eeerMz, but its just that i am just gonna leave it to time,place and yadda yadda yadda to take its own course. hahaz how ironic, a gal who has constantly been in love after love taking a break for once.The feelings great but each time i take a look and wonder what happened to the previous love, i cant stop but wish when will the right one come, when will i be loved for me and not as anything else, not as a need.i tot i found my angel, but hahaz angel have wings and i guess it decided to make use of them. anywayz no point crying over spilt milk aye? hahaz just waiting for the time, when the 12 roses,one bear and a kiss will come knocking on my door for real. fantasy fantasy something i am greatly famous off.besides the pathetic matters of the heart which can never be what i seek. i have a whole lotta of other stuff thats going on. I got the internship at ACCENTURE.note its accenture. had a talk with my liason officer and he kinda freaked me and senthil out. Guess what.. working hrs fer most of the time. 9am to 9pm. after 9pm.20 bucks fer taxi fare home. oh gosh. i am afaird, so very afaird that i might not be able to take it. but then again,i went through lotsa hardship b4, hope i can pull thru this. Hahaz my liason office warned us to buck up on our programming IF nOT we are DEAD.wooHOoo WooHoo programming the LoVE of my life.*grins in despair* guess i can never run awayz from it. Next stop: i got selected in the australs team for debates. IE i will be flying off to new zealand in the month of july for ard 10 days. Gonna get trash, but hope can have some wins. Kinda scared though.well with my ever going to be hectic schedule i am wondering how am i going to squeeze in time for debate practices.How oh How. besides that, i am taking up Amaths O'lEvel. nope i havent taken it b4.taking it for the sake of wanting to pursue degree in psy. hmmz amaths being a pre-requist. soo far, amaths going fine. hope i can score a distinction. Sunita sunita why do u alwayz have to set high standards for urself? **puzzled** well thats me i guess..other than that, i hope my cough silences itself ASAP.and i hope prince charming mite enter my life again.hahaz well thats one thing that mite never happen,but doesnt hurt to wish ritez. anywayz i got to snooze of to bed now, b4 my dad comes in and scolds me for being miss heroine and not rest wen i am sick..well i m off..see ya soon..