Sunday, August 14, 2005 / 10:55 PM
"why are your nick alwayz soo sad?" thats what my cousin asked me yesterdae...Suddenly i felt a pinch manz...I started pondering and questioning myself why too...well maybe i m juz feeling soo...i do feel happy inside sometimes, but sometimes on the other hand i juz feel off balance...maybe coz i m blogged down wif lotsa work...And my cuz was like telling me that he's in love..on cloud nine...woahz...soo fast...hmmz well thats gd fer him then..
like i have said i m gonna wait till the rite one comes and make sure he stays till the end of time..hmmz well think abt it...if i happen to have A Bf now...wich means to say in poly...after we graduate, his gonna go army..hahaz serve the nation..then i shall be alone all over again fer 2 yrs...no more meeting everyday and ya...soo its gonna be rather hard...well if loves sparks then ya...if not i m juz gonna wait till i m in university...(like how my parents alwayz wanted it) well maybe wen i start working?(better still) '-_-...
had a talk wif my mum today...and she was like asking me whether was she controlling me too much...Hmmz and as u can guess wats my answer would be...i juz smiled and say nope...maybe a little but then i told her i understand how she feels..then she told me that shes afaird that shes controlling to much..she told me that shes afaird to lose my love...hahaz common ma..I LOVE U ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT...she brought up the past wen i neglected my family fer that ass...and shes afaird that it mite happen again..hahaz i was like..hey that was my first..and der i wont do that again...the next time i m in love its gonna be wif ya consent..so no more hiding?
My mum asked..."why are youngsters nowadays alwayz falling in love at this unripe age?""why dun they noe that they have plenty of time in the future.." they are wasting their time and blah blah" haiz another pinch there...wonder how many more pinches i m gonna get?
Naturally i would have shugged my shoulder and reply i dunnoe...but today i was like gonna tell her the fact of why youngsters are in and out of love.. so i started blabbering..
I started by saying that they thing that they are ready..and the main reason would be that they had sumone to confine too alwayz...coz parents are bz and blah...all they need is love (TLC) and reassurance...those that not all parents are able to give? after saying that...she turned and looked at me and asked "soo do u get all u need frm ask" and i replied yes i do..thats why i dun need a BF? hahaz its half true la...its true i get all the love frm my family but aint it nice to have someone special...well not yet i guess...
basically have been reallie lousy this weekend...have been having crying spells once in a while...well maybe i juz lost and lonely inside..hahaz havent reason emotional karma...well soon la...will get back on track..ahahz allot of ppl expecting frm me..and me myself too...soo ya...
okie i got to BUZZ off now...projects.. :D
Like An Angel
Sunita- lil princess. craves to be happy and successful.complexed.lovable.
"i dont know much,but i know i love you, and that will be all there is to know"BR>
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