Sunday, October 30, 2005 / 1:30 PM
"The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind...
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you...
The reason I don't want you is because I need you...
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if you left me...
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you...
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you...
The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life."
got this somewhere off the net wen reading...sounds freaking true.well enJoy ;)
Friday, October 28, 2005 / 10:23 AM
i m going crazy crazy crazy juz thinking abt u lately.i m going crazy crazy thinking abt u baby.i m going crazy crazy fer not touch,crazy crazy fer not yet hold u, crazy crazy fer not see u again.how long i m to control.
common i m soo into u already...cant anyone see it??how much do i have prove more?i m the kind of gal that can treat u sweet,but u got to realise u got to be sweeter to me.
theres a limit one can hold it..and i think i m slowly reaching the limit..but slowly i realise the other side of the hand is not clapping anymore.why is life soo sick on me manz.once bitten,twice shy..but now its twice bitten!! what wrong did i do? i fall fer someone..is it a crime..and that we can only fall fer a certain person and not anyone our hearts fall fer?? i dunnoe if the other hand knows how i feel or its juz trying to denyin the fact of soo.
hahaz back to square one...being strong fer a reason that i dun think i shld.but its happiness of others i m more concerned abt...soo i have to seal UP!!....argh
tigger i like u soo much..but then u are gone or going. honestly u are the first one..that i cld fit soo perfectly.unfortunately i guess the puzzle piece on ur side doesnt match mine.its like he's the only one wen i can balance my feelings and everything.i dun want to lose u.everydae i hope that a miracle mite happen.well u said it urself..ppl often go to those that dun usually provide them total love,and move awayz frm those that can provide lifetime love.so i noe it takes more than miracle for me..
i often cry.but come to a point wen i noe that crying wont change anything.i tried n i failed n i guess i will continue failing.theres a danger in loving someone too much,and its sad to know that its ur heart u cant trust.theres a danger in loving someone too much,and its sad to know its ur heart they cant touch.
Wednesday, October 26, 2005 / 10:48 AM
turn ard,ever now and then i get a a little tired listening to my tears
turn ard,ever now and then i fall apart,turn ard. i need you now tonight.
how i wish those statements were REAL..yesh i need you tonite.and forever gonna start tonite.
but theres nothing i can do..
nature--> u can easily fall in love and easily fall out of love..BUt you cant easily be forced out of love.argh forcing urself is super near impossible la.argh i need you..i have fallen n fallen n my hearts want to continue to fall.but my mind says that circumstances DUN allow soo.soo now i m juz gonna be myself.refraining and trying my best not to make stuff any harder fer any soUls..hehez.
okie i woke up late and let fer debates.will continue my legendary story sOOn...
oh ya,tigger nice outinG!! ;)
*piGlet*
Thursday, October 20, 2005 / 7:43 AM
hmmz me back again...
hahaz blog blog blog..hehez since u r the only one that knows how i really feel deep down inside.hahaz how i wish it was a person.anyone.gal or guy.i dun care.
been feeling abit pist at myself.no idea why.or actuallie i do.infact that same incident keeps on flashing in my mind.sometimes i wish to scream it out.oH my God those cries of pain...hahaz todae i sat down n starting thinking.what m i really gonna do in life..hahaz the question still ponders.u noe wat i m toking abt.hmmz haiz..lost my voice on sat.and it aint fully back till todae..VOICY please come back my dear..hmmz todae went out wif tigger to pass him a cd.hmmz enjoyed myself lots..hahaz laughed alot..hope that tigger did enjoy himself tOO..hmmz well me gtg now. take care...will be backCHECk-> my lifes swirling...hahaz*piGLet*
Wednesday, October 19, 2005 / 11:37 AM
**food for thoughT**
dreams are not those that we see with our eyes, for dreams are wat the mind and soul see.okie dun really know whether that makes sense or not.but thats juz that..
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a classic bitch is wat i m.argh. i cant believe this is wat i m.how cld i?
soo many thing running thru my mind.aint sure wat m i too do manz.sit and think? sit n cry? sit n ponder or shld i go n INFLICt pain on myself.hahaz inflicting pain is the only way i can remove pain i m feeling deep down inside ritez??
well inflict pain thats wat i shall do? argh no listening ear fer now.companion juz ipOd and computer and source of inflicting pain.
will be back
soo lOng...
Tuesday, October 18, 2005 / 10:56 AM
am i jinX??haiz i juz read my ex friendster page n his gf one too..hahaz sad manz...it seems i m jinx. its like i cant keep anyone happy at all..hahaz well or no one can make me happy..hahaz nobody loves,everybody hates me.okie i m getting paranoid..but its juz the same.my ex left me, and now tigger is in the process of going awayz. how do i cope manz. why do the ppl i love dearly have to part wif me? common i too have a heart...something that beats...i know me writing this mite seem bias or wat soo ever. but then come to think of it... 10 mths ago.gana left.and now 10 mths later tigger leaving.the thing is i like tigger soo much more than gana..its gonna be super painful manz.total eclipse of the heart.haiz.. i dunnoe wat to do..seriously i m LOST.hahaz back to how i was 10 mths ago..hmmz sad sad sad sad sad sad...it seems ppl are happier without me ard. hahaz whus gonna be the one to keep me happy.i tot i found him.but maybe finders aint keeper5 all the time??tigger i hope u get her back...my support is all wif ya...dun stress..wen theres a will theres a way...have been coughing badly..as if like i m gonna collaspe any moment now.argh.sick manz.i need a hug, an ear.
Monday, October 17, 2005 / 9:39 AM
**wooHOo 18**
i m finally legally,officially 18 yrs of age..woohoo..well i dunnoe why i m making a big deal out of it though.anywayz i had the best ever birthday party manz..ever since i cld remember my birthday party..i tell ya..its was such a lovable moment that i cant neber forget any inch of it.guess wat tigger was part of it..we had dancing,treasure hunt,truth or dare and smile if you love me.hmmz total out of 20 ppl i invit3d only 7 turned up..sad..came to a conclusion i m lovable yet not impt.some of my friends had work.soo they are excused but the rest..argh...excuses...well i dun care now..thanks to those 9 souls that made me an evening i cant neber forget.
hmmz i got cake smashed.and i danced.danced first time in my life!!!!first time..besides the folk dance in sec sch.argh.but it was all great fun.tigger danced kinda well too...soo cute and argh.at that point of time i was soo tempted to pinch his cheeks..well had to control...food was great(winks* thanks mummy and masi sito) hehez..well thanks guys fer all ya presents.LOVE them..muacks muacks...
the party ended at ard 11.45pm and my daddy volunteered to sent al my peeps back hm.hehez 8 ppl squeezing in a car...hahaz nice...rl sat on me.. senthil and tigger squeezed wif each other.bc squeezed with me and rl.
then after dropping rl,senthil,and Bc. it was only dad,me,tigger and cash in the car. me and tigger were in the back sit. and guess wat the "if you are not the one" song played on the radio. wat a perfect time. hmmz all i did was stare into his eyes.but he tried not to look back.why?? well many other songs that reflected our situation played along on the radio.argh that feeling inside me was like soo strong.but wat to do..in a position to conceal it.but i m gonna write it down here..coz i m confine to conceal my feelings on this canvas. wen the song played on the radio was gonna cry and wanted soo much to cuddle up into his arms. i dunnoe.the once sunita that vowed not to fall in love is deeply liking someone soo much...i mean it manz.oh god.why cant we juz have wat we want?
oh ya...one more thing...i lost my voice and now i sound like a man..trust me its scary to hear my dear voice.
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emoTiOnS*
well canvas this the time i m gonna pour my feelings. honestly speaking this is juz how i feel.not to offend ppl are wat soo ever.juz lovehatez feelings.
i m soo feeling amiss.its like the one that provide me love,care,concern,tlc, and security is soo near yet soo far. i really need you manz. i have reached to a point that i cant stop thinking abt u.HONEstly saying.i dun wish to let you go at all.But if going is wats gonna make u happy i will.i m soo afraid to fall into that realm of HateLove..hmmz but wat ever it is. i m soo into it that i dunnoe how to express wat i m feeling.
hey GOD..common help us out here.show each of us the path that we are suppose to take. oh ya.ps. if my path's gonna hurt..help me thru it k? thanks
he's been thinking toooo much and i m afraid it mite affect his health.argh i feel soo low seeing him in this situation.hope he comes out of it soon enuf. he shldnt be dwelling..i m saying this coz i cant bear to see u like that. i need to see the cheerful you.the tiggering tigger.dun put up a mask of happiness on.remove the mask and let happiness shine upon u again. ps. watever choice u make i will alwayz be rite behind u with my almost support..
i m missing you soo much..
*note this is based that i m writing on the canvas. not offending anyone and not indirectly telling anything.* its solely an avenue to pour.
*pigLet*
TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit lonely and you're never coming round. TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit tired of list'ning to the sound of my tears. TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit nervous that the best of all the years have gone by. TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit terrified and then I see the look in your eyes. TURN AROUND, BRIGHT EYES Every now and the I fall apart. TURN AROUND, BRIGHT EYES Every now and the I fall apart.
TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit restless and I dream of something wild. TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit helpless and I'm lying like a child in your arms. TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit angry and I know I've got to get out and cry. TURN AROUND Every now and then I get a little bit terrified but then I see the look in your eyes. TURN AROUND, BRIGHT EYES Every now and then I fall apart. TURN AROUND, BRIGHT EYES Every now and then I fall apart. And I need you now tonight and I need you more than ever and if you only hold me tight we'll be holding on forever. And we'll only be making it right 'cause we'll never be wrong. Together we can take it to the end of the line. Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time. I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark. We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks. I really need you tonight, forever's gonna start tonight, forever's gonna start tonight. Once upon a time I was falling in love, now I'm only falling apart. There's nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. Once upon a time there was light in my life but now there's only love in the dark. Nothing I can say, a total eclipse of the heart.
TURN AROUND, BRIGHT EYES every now and then I fall apart TURN AROUND, BRIGHT EYES every now and then I fall apart And I need you now tonight and I need you more than ever and if you only hold me tight we'll be holding on forever. And we'll only be making it right 'cause we'll never be wrong. Together we can take it to the end of the line. Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time. I don't know what to do, I'm always in the dark. We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks. I really need you tonight, forever's gonna start tonight, forever's gonna start tonight. Once upon a time I was falling in love but now I'm only falling apart. Nothing I can do, a total eclipse of the heart. Once upon a time there was light in my life but now there's only love in the dark. Nothing I can say, a total eclipse of the heart A total eclipse of the heart
Turn around, bright eyes Turn around, bright eyes, turn aroundthis song explains what i feel like now...
Thursday, October 13, 2005 / 10:14 PM
yuppie i m legally 18...gee
haiz....feeling super happy todae..i spent 3/4 of the day with tigger...soo cute and soo much fun..hmmz lolz...he reallie disturb me alot..but i din mind it at all..soo sweet..k i got lots of write but not in the mood fer essays..
soo ya cyaz soOnz
Tuesday, October 11, 2005 / 2:03 AM
*beyond My emOtional Strength.*
here i m at rock bottom coz i have lost someone that i was starting or in fact fell in love with oready.note its my definition of falling in love..diff ppl diff perspective..
i think falling rock bottom aint enuf la... i need to be dug deep into the ground now. got a msg frm devi-> my ex's girlfriend.AFTER 10 mths,she wrote to apologize..haiz..10 mths to realise a mistake and apologize on his behalf...common if its apology i seek..it shld be frm him manz..not frm his gal. he make the thing.gal apologize? well i dun think he is slightest bit sorry. well heck ...wat the hell can i do? besides sitting down n cry on how shitty my life can get.
my life==> an open cut that juz get stabbed deeper each time and neber ever the sight of it closing up. others have cuts but eventually they will close and heal leaving a scar--> ie memories.hahaz soo lucky.
feeling extra shitty now...coz i got no where to run to...no open arms NO NTH.trust me it sucks to be in this situation.u like someone and yet that sumone doesnt like u.its all gone...juz in the snap of the finger. maybe i m juz too gd to be true thats y ppl are afraid to stay on.? well but thats juz me....haiz... i missing u alot... u noe whu i mean..sadly all i can do,is to seal everything up and hope fer the best fer ya. dun worry,u will get wat u want...i m sure...u are a super nice guy...even though the saying goes that nice guys finish last..u will finish it with wat u want juz rite next to ya.gd lucK...
as fer me...i have to search fer my emotional strength.dun think i can go thru it again alone...mite take a longer time...but i dunnoe if i will fully recover...GOD knows...
birthdae in 2 daes...and i m in this all f***ked up mood.
anyways its in the bleak hrs of morning..i need to slp...if not i will go crazy...
*piglet*
Monday, October 10, 2005 / 11:33 AM
* feeling better *
havent eaten anything since yesterday morning.just dun feel like eating at all. maybe its juz the mood swings.hahaz yesterday i was toking to tigger..then my hp batt went flat.argh.anywayz tigger if u read this.. i m sorry. u were actually aslp too while i was toking to ya.soo we are even? hehez.
anywayz feeling better already.hahaz lolz...knocked my head to tell me that its okie..people come and go.and that he's going towards the direction that makes him happy..wooHoo... i made one more soul happier...nice..guess back to my crazy self again..hahaz checking out guys...haiz alvin where are u...miss seeing your goatie.crazy me...see i told ya i m going bonkers.
anywayz gonna have my birthday party soon.hope ppl turn up.i dun want it to be a flOp...soo afraid ppl wont make it...and then i will be super embrassed.hahaz...wont happen ritez...ppl please come.
have been blogging excessively manz.wats wrong.nah nth.maybe juz need an avenue to pour?I M BORED..tigger said he wanted to go out.but i think he's slping or maybe juz havent got the time to call...guess i have to get the stuff myself.I HATE GOING out alone.
1) ppl mite think i m anti-social..go out no kaki
2) with my ever soo big mouth how can i go out alone without having a ear to yack intO??
k k... i shall stop yacking here. will be back sOOn. oops i think i have dropped into the mood where i chose not to communicate much verbally ;O
Sunday, October 09, 2005 / 10:14 PM
*reality*
walau juz went to my ex frendster page.wOOhoo... already i rock bottom hurt i see the picture i think i bury my head into the ground. its not that i miss him or watever. which come to think maybe i do.nah no la..hahaz once someone asked me why my love is soo small.hahaz small love.u shld have seen me abt 8 mths bad. u think i was one mad little gal manz. hmmz maybe its juz self denial that i made a grave mistake that keeps me growing and maturing to wat i m now.
anywayz my ex uploaded soo many pix on frendster.hahaz its been a long time since i have seen him.and close to a yr since i have tok to him.well neber gonna get to tok to him ever again.
feeling really angry with myself now. twice i m hurt. twice. once i got hurt i vowed to neber get hurt again.and here i m at square one.sad manz.argh.its not the same situation.its juz the same feeling...like ur heart sinks to rock bottom. its not coz i lost the thing.its juz that i brough hurt to my own self..shld beat myself la.
cant believe my heart is at rock bottom once again.how cld i cheat my heart again.the promise i gave to it??seeing my ex pix makes me feel why did it happen again. haiz i m at a total cross road. how long will it take fer me to get out of this? how long.. i need care. frm anyone whus willing to give me any form of care.hahaz..
i m going crazy..super crazy
**piglet**
*dealing with it*
i feel extremely down.i juz want to cry it all out.rock bottom.float up please.
i dunnoe wat to write. i dunnoe wat to say. i think i m feeling delay action.help me anyone.
* feeling better *
havent eaten anything since yesterday morning.just dun feel like eating at all. maybe its juz the mood swings.hahaz yesterday i was toking to tigger..then my hp batt went flat.argh.anywayz tigger if u read this.. i m sorry. u were actually aslp too while i was toking to ya.soo we are even? hehez.
anywayz feeling better already.hahaz lolz...knocked my head to tell me that its okie..people come and go.and that he's going towards the direction that makes him happy..wooHoo... i made one more soul happier...nice..guess back to my crazy self again..hahaz checking out guys...haiz alvin where are u...miss seeing your goatie.crazy me...see i told ya i m going bonkers.
anywayz gonna have my birthday party soon.hope ppl turn up.i dun want it to be a flOp...soo afraid ppl wont make it...and then i will be super embrassed.hahaz...wont happen ritez...ppl please come.
have been blogging excessively manz.wats wrong.nah nth.maybe juz need an avenue to pour?I M BORED..tigger said he wanted to go out.but i think he's slping or maybe juz havent got the time to call...guess i have to get the stuff myself.I HATE GOING out alone.
1) ppl mite think i m anti-social..go out no kaki
2) with my ever soo big mouth how can i go out alone without having a ear to yack intO??
k k... i shall stop yacking here. will be back sOOn. oops i think i have dropped into the mood where i chose not to communicate much verbally ;O
Saturday, October 08, 2005 / 4:18 PM
*goNe*
argh.million little knives piercing every single part of my body.sad.heart and soul and a small little voice in me squeaking for ya to not go.
well for you to go or not, is not in my hands. eventually you will go.missing him like nobody's business. hahaz well missing him is what i shall do till time cures the pain. i really felt so warmed up in him,the sense of security deeping in.hell security breaks apart and warmness turns into cold chills.
not matter how much words are my companion.words turn enemies when deal with this kinda situation.words no longer can seep out,telling deeply how i feel. qns is how do i feel? a sense of lost fer not holding ya, or a sense of happiness seeing ur eyes gleam again? maybe its juz not meant to be.or maybe i will neber be loved truly. once bitten,twice shy,twice bitten, dun try. Or third time the charm. it happened once.i loved like i neber loved before. i sacrificed no gal will do.i neglected my life and fell into his realm.I got bit. i was blinded. love blinds it all.
it happened again.a sweet one i must say.i was sure where i was heading.i knew it mite not stay.no doubt i chose the path.the path i never will regret. but now i seek fer someones help.time i guess it will be. i need the determination to pull my heart out. fer each of those tickles,memories lingers.memories the lethal of them most.actually reason why ppl go or stay is coz they cant let go of memories they had before.memories are the lifeguards or murderers of relationship i must say.no one goes awayz or stays on based on individual characters at that point of time.its the memories that pull or push them.sad but true.life it is.
once i tot, finally i will have someone that cares fer me.appreciate me fer me.and love me fer me. but i guess i was wrong.i felt tired living in my close realm.i needed someone to share my happiness,my sadness,and anger.and me to share their's in turn.sadly i have to stick into that realm.maybe lovehatez lover as not arrived or maybe there'll neber be one.all i wanna say,is i like u alot.glad to have meet ya.hope to remain as friends as we are now.remember loveHatez is alwayz there for ya.in time of happiness,sadness,anger and fear.
ps.i wrote this solely to express my feelings and not as an avenue to make ppl feel better or worse. its mean alot to me for me being able to let it all out. i feel better.coz this plain paper is all that i have for now.
**pigLet**
Friday, October 07, 2005 / 10:16 PM
*feelings*
usually in our everyday life,everyone out there either let out their feelings or supress their feelings to either let ppl know or to let no one know.
i am in a position now that i cant let any feelings flow out no matter how much i want them to juz flow out naturally.thats how i really feel.well since i cant show it in real life.well at least i can write it out. wat i honestly feel deep inside of me.its juz gonna be my soul feelings.wat is deep rock bottom inside of me.aint offending anyone here k.
scenario--> i am falling for this cute little guy**tigger**..he is soo sweet and soo nice to be ard. i feel so secure and comfortable with him.take today for an eg. i havent met him for 2 days and suddenly felt like meeting him.so i went down to his working place..before that i was feeling soo low at hm.was at totally rock bottom on the mood-o-meter today.muz be the mood swings.but wen i saw him today i felt soo gd deep inside.it was like small little sparks igniting inside of me wen i saw his cute little dashing smile and those lovable eyes. argh deep inside i felt like pinching his chin manz. but hell i had to control ;) oh ya he looked super nice and macho in uniform.the black pants..so sleek..nice ;)
fer the past few daes i have been feeling very lost.i read his blog and realise that he still wanna go back. sad.lost.scared. but then if thats wat gonna make him happy that ma ybe thats wat will eventually happen.wat makes him happy makes me happy tOO..sadly the past few daes,me kinda feel that hes trying to shun awayz from me, or maybe he's juz too tired.maybe,maybe not.every nite i yearn to hear his voice b4 i go to bed. juz that few mins of his voice is all i need. hahaz habit i guess, a sweet yet lethal habit.but loving it.. :)
bought a baby tigger and piglet. they are soo soo sweet manz..hahaz soo small..LOlz... hahaz reminds me of T*p*i*G*G*L*e*t*R.
bottom line..i guess i m falling in love. something i aint sure whether i can do. dont noe that if i were to fall,will the person on the other end catch me? a risk to take or a step not to take yet to regret later? i miss him alot. i miss his tickles. i miss his smile.i miss him.oops sudenly having sharp pangs in my head. OUCH...hahaz lolz... wonder y.thinking to much perhasp. or maybe juz too tired.watever it is...hoping he mite call tonite...missing his voice..true.innocently.waiting.surely.
well i have finally poured my dear heart out. note this is juz my personal feelings. nothing else. not written to make ppl feel bad or sad or angry. this is juz how LovehaTez feels inside. juz letting it all out..
pz Hope to see ya soon.and hope things get easy fer ya.
me gtg now..
**pigLet**
Thursday, October 06, 2005 / 9:46 PM
feelings,emotions,heart--> aspects of life that we cant live without and can really live with. being 18 yrs of age i have been thru quite abit of life and seen people live thru it. life--> something that keeps us going on..something that blossoms like roses fer others and something that withers awayz juz. wat is life..scientic explaination is juz a one plus one theory of it. but wat exactly happens in life no one knows. NO one have been the same exact situation with any one else. everyone is caught up in the own realm of happiness and sorrows. thats why wen one falls into a deep problem.no one actually has a ready made solution.we have to go thru it..live thru it and learn from it..often time it will be a coarse road.FUll of bumps here and there...or made a strike of lighting too.but thats juz make us stronger inevitably. in life there to two kind of people.one of those are the ones that in their entire lifetime,stick to one fixed routine. and the other kind are the ones that in their one lifetime do everything they can. those that chose to stick to their routine are those that often fearful to face problems or to stay denial to all things that happen to them.all they wish could happen would be for the problems that arise to slowly slip awayz. common basic facts, problems happen to make u stronger,running awayz makes things even more worse.I know its hard to face with the problems face to face but its obviously a way better choice that juz to remain mumb,aint it?they cease to remember that their act of keeping quiet and running awayz,might be hurting another soul.its like.facing the prob once equates to falling one time hard..than procrastinate that equates to falling down a million times slolwy..which is much more better in a long run? falling down once hard,hurts the butt lots more,but no doubt u deal wif the issue once and fer all. u deal with it.eventually putting it to a close.. falling down million times forcing u become weaker each time and not knowing when it will come to an end. it hurts 999,999 times more..and this small bits of hurt will accumulate and stay as a million scars. once i got told of by a loved one. "i have no interest in you,will never have interest in you, never had interest in you, soo fuck OFF" hmmz wen those words pierced my ears i was like what the hell.i cursed and sweared the person,but now looking back...no doubt wat that person did was utterly wrong but it made me fall once..a hard one.. rather than i get small bits and pieces of that message which will hurt more and more.. maybe that just my personal preference.but yeah..maybe some ppl prefer it slow? looking in my everyday life, there are very few out there that think like me.. often time, i see people blaming and pointing fingers at one another when problems strike their lifes.i dunnoe how they can simply push all the blame wen that they are part of it. dun they get a sense of guilt when they do that? everyone blames everyone else. but maybe the problem juz lies in those very individuals. take a scenario, a classic scenario.. a team of 4 students, doing their project.project's due in a few days,and member D hasnt start on his/her work yet.Note member D starts complaining that member a,b,c hasnt helped him/her in a small part of the work.and then that member din bother to start work at all. LOOk member d is blaming others fer his/her part that he failed to start upon.see. everyone blames the other.but no one is willing to take the blame. member shld blame his/her self fer not trying to seek him frm another source when help wasnt given straight awayz.the member chose to depend on another.wen will ppl start to realise that we aint living on one another in terms of getting work done? LOVEhATEZ....
LOVE TO HATE OR HATE TO LOVE..hmmz my trademark now.this is a first.me in a confused state when it comes to the matters of the heart..its a super long story and REALLY hope it gets sorted out REAL fast...hahaz lolz..well now juz living each day as it comes..fun,sad,angry,fear all at once.thats more like it gal.wats a day without sadness,filled with happiness, a day without happiness,filled with sadness,a day without anger filled with sadness,a day with any of those missing,aint a day at all...
***piGleT***
Wednesday, October 05, 2005 / 7:38 AM
todae is the quietest i have been fer a long time..its like i juz dont feel like talking at all..to answer qns when i myself is at a lost.
Monday, October 03, 2005 / 8:26 AM
** coLLide **
haiz...i havent been able to blog fer that past one week...the time i really needed to blog..hmmz even now te create post page is in a mess!!...well i'll juz heck abt it and start writing..
Finally i have finished my examz.WoOhoo...tell ya those 2 weeks were painstaking weeks manz of sch...well it was soo tensed...everyday,well almost everyday me will be under t15 studying like a nerd...hmmz trying to memorise stuff..well i have a many sweet memories there tOO...yuPPie...hahaz lolz...
soo caught up wif studying that we ate either sandwich frm the sandwich machine or instant nOOdles...well examz are over...can relaz till semester 2 which is like less than a mth awayz...stooPid sHORT hols..
hmmz lets blog abt a sweet yet complicated issue...hmmz i have fell for someone already...the thing is that, coz of certain issues i have to refrain my actions and feelings...ignore that part..
hmmz spending time with that person is super sweet n nice manz..makes me feel on cloud nine..hahaz the tickling, the sitting on dustbin,the one hand lift..hahaz make me feel that i m sOO small...Oh YA not to forget the tour of the boys toilet...haiz that part was nice but kinda embrassing...but then it was all innocent fun..really hope that this guy will find the rite path that makes him happy...hahaz al i wanna see is him being happy inside out...waiting fer the next time i can set eyes on ya... ;)
have been hOOked to the collide song...the sOng is wonderful manz...and have a special meaning to it..hahaz sweet...
*u and i cOLLide*
