i m finally legally,officially 18 yrs of age..woohoo..well i dunnoe why i m making a big deal out of it though.anywayz i had the best ever birthday party manz..ever since i cld remember my birthday party..i tell ya..its was such a lovable moment that i cant neber forget any inch of it.guess wat tigger was part of it..we had dancing,treasure hunt,truth or dare and smile if you love me.hmmz total out of 20 ppl i invit3d only 7 turned up..sad..came to a conclusion i m lovable yet not impt.some of my friends had work.soo they are excused but the rest..argh...excuses...well i dun care now..thanks to those 9 souls that made me an evening i cant neber forget.
hmmz i got cake smashed.and i danced.danced first time in my life!!!!first time..besides the folk dance in sec sch.argh.but it was all great fun.tigger danced kinda well too...soo cute and argh.at that point of time i was soo tempted to pinch his cheeks..well had to control...food was great(winks* thanks mummy and masi sito) hehez..well thanks guys fer all ya presents.LOVE them..muacks muacks...
the party ended at ard 11.45pm and my daddy volunteered to sent al my peeps back hm.hehez 8 ppl squeezing in a car...hahaz nice...rl sat on me.. senthil and tigger squeezed wif each other.bc squeezed with me and rl.
then after dropping rl,senthil,and Bc. it was only dad,me,tigger and cash in the car. me and tigger were in the back sit. and guess wat the "if you are not the one" song played on the radio. wat a perfect time. hmmz all i did was stare into his eyes.but he tried not to look back.why?? well many other songs that reflected our situation played along on the radio.argh that feeling inside me was like soo strong.but wat to do..in a position to conceal it.but i m gonna write it down here..coz i m confine to conceal my feelings on this canvas. wen the song played on the radio was gonna cry and wanted soo much to cuddle up into his arms. i dunnoe.the once sunita that vowed not to fall in love is deeply liking someone soo much...i mean it manz.oh god.why cant we juz have wat we want?
oh ya...one more thing...i lost my voice and now i sound like a man..trust me its scary to hear my dear voice.
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- emoTiOnS* well canvas this the time i m gonna pour my feelings. honestly speaking this is juz how i feel.not to offend ppl are wat soo ever.juz lovehatez feelings.
i m soo feeling amiss.its like the one that provide me love,care,concern,tlc, and security is soo near yet soo far. i really need you manz. i have reached to a point that i cant stop thinking abt u.HONEstly saying.i dun wish to let you go at all.But if going is wats gonna make u happy i will.i m soo afraid to fall into that realm of HateLove..hmmz but wat ever it is. i m soo into it that i dunnoe how to express wat i m feeling.
hey GOD..common help us out here.show each of us the path that we are suppose to take. oh ya.ps. if my path's gonna hurt..help me thru it k? thanks
he's been thinking toooo much and i m afraid it mite affect his health.argh i feel soo low seeing him in this situation.hope he comes out of it soon enuf. he shldnt be dwelling..i m saying this coz i cant bear to see u like that. i need to see the cheerful you.the tiggering tigger.dun put up a mask of happiness on.remove the mask and let happiness shine upon u again. ps. watever choice u make i will alwayz be rite behind u with my almost support..
i m missing you soo much..
*note this is based that i m writing on the canvas. not offending anyone and not indirectly telling anything.* its solely an avenue to pour.
*pigLet*
Like An Angel
Sunita- lil princess. craves to be happy and successful.complexed.lovable.
"i dont know much,but i know i love you, and that will be all there is to know"BR>
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
