argh.million little knives piercing every single part of my body.sad.heart and soul and a small little voice in me squeaking for ya to not go.
well for you to go or not, is not in my hands. eventually you will go.missing him like nobody's business. hahaz well missing him is what i shall do till time cures the pain. i really felt so warmed up in him,the sense of security deeping in.hell security breaks apart and warmness turns into cold chills.
not matter how much words are my companion.words turn enemies when deal with this kinda situation.words no longer can seep out,telling deeply how i feel. qns is how do i feel? a sense of lost fer not holding ya, or a sense of happiness seeing ur eyes gleam again? maybe its juz not meant to be.or maybe i will neber be loved truly. once bitten,twice shy,twice bitten, dun try. Or third time the charm. it happened once.i loved like i neber loved before. i sacrificed no gal will do.i neglected my life and fell into his realm.I got bit. i was blinded. love blinds it all.
it happened again.a sweet one i must say.i was sure where i was heading.i knew it mite not stay.no doubt i chose the path.the path i never will regret. but now i seek fer someones help.time i guess it will be. i need the determination to pull my heart out. fer each of those tickles,memories lingers.memories the lethal of them most.actually reason why ppl go or stay is coz they cant let go of memories they had before.memories are the lifeguards or murderers of relationship i must say.no one goes awayz or stays on based on individual characters at that point of time.its the memories that pull or push them.sad but true.life it is.
once i tot, finally i will have someone that cares fer me.appreciate me fer me.and love me fer me. but i guess i was wrong.i felt tired living in my close realm.i needed someone to share my happiness,my sadness,and anger.and me to share their's in turn.sadly i have to stick into that realm.maybe lovehatez lover as not arrived or maybe there'll neber be one.all i wanna say,is i like u alot.glad to have meet ya.hope to remain as friends as we are now.remember loveHatez is alwayz there for ya.in time of happiness,sadness,anger and fear.
ps.i wrote this solely to express my feelings and not as an avenue to make ppl feel better or worse. its mean alot to me for me being able to let it all out. i feel better.coz this plain paper is all that i have for now.
**pigLet**
Like An Angel
Sunita- lil princess. craves to be happy and successful.complexed.lovable.
"i dont know much,but i know i love you, and that will be all there is to know"BR>
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
