i am feeling super sad and all out of focus today. My head's behaving as though its going to burst or better still explode into pieces. I have been studying soo hard aiming for the A's. reallie hope i can get thru this examz without getting a mental breakdown.
Alwayz just came to blog abt my ever soo wonderful life. i think if anyone would come across my blog and read it persistantly, he/she mite just wonder why is my life that full of surprises. hehez maybe fer once surprises shld start taking a quieter toll and the back seat fer this time.
today had my first paper.it was gd. hehez. besides that. i saw someone today. and surprisely it just didnt excite me at all. I came to terms that he aint anyone i know at all, why the hell shld i bother. hmmz he has his own life and me my own too.why i m soo adamant in wanting to be frends with him.maybe the cute smile? the goatie? well if i do get him as a frend, that will be nice. well maybe things are juz meant to be the way they are now?
Besides that. i dunnoe why my dear heart chooses to make a comotion now, or maybe start to feel now.told ya.delayed action. i extremely miss him now.( gee if u are reading this, i m sorry for writing wat i feel out). i want him back.why i aint sure. i think he is my angel. well some people reading this mite think i m one ass. wanting him back when i wasnt that close to him. well somethings things aint need to be near to be felt. i dunnoe, theres just that something in him, that makes me feel happy n gd. hmmz he made me feel happy,besides certain period of time. i knew i had someone that care and bLah n bLah.but now Poofed all gone..
now i m soo drained out.wishing hard that someone was there to give me support. to give me a tap on the back and say "u can do it" n "i m rite here by urside". tough luCkz.Maybe its just aint the right time for everything. but then i start to question, if it aint the rite them, why do i crave and seek fer it? shldnt i be least bothered, if it reallie wasnt the rite time. why does my heart, emotions, and feelings sway towards that direction?? tell me someone? maybe i m destined to be hurt a million before i can surface to the top?
whats wif me? i have nothing, yet lose everything that i get>> i have no assets, no lady-likeness,no nothing. no wonder i aint worth anything.no ones going to stay. till i change. but wat fer i change? i aint a murderer. i am juz a gal that aint the normal gal u see. i m just a little more braver, a little less feminine and a very big mouth. but overall damn caring and dun hurt at all. gee maybe thats not the rite combo to have, but i aint changing. Love me fer who i m, not whu u want me to be. hmmz gana left, tigger left, he left. why? no one gonna tell me the truth? to date, no one understands me, no one will...
:) :(
Like An Angel
Sunita- lil princess. craves to be happy and successful.complexed.lovable.
"i dont know much,but i know i love you, and that will be all there is to know"BR>
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
