i really find that my life holds nothing great seemingly. yesh i do, do well in schOOl.BUT the catch is, i can only do well with ALOT of hardwork. nothing seems to come my way with great ease. i m not complaning that i hate doing hardwork or putting in much effort, its just that sometimes i feel, i too need a break. on top of all that i feel that i aint really much supported by anyone ard me. i start to realise some people are close to me not cause they care but cause i am of a great benefit to them? not only that my love life sucks.i think i having been missing this gundu, till i dont have the energy to miss anymore. slowly i feel that i can no longer hold on to the rope,coz its slipping awayz.hahaz sunita finally realising the fact that nothings fer real. i think tis time round my heart as finally learnt its lesson. that no one is willing enuf to keep it well. soo dun bother trying to even let anyone do so ever again. now i wish that everything can be erased awayz. i have no one that understands wat i truly feel, i guess this blog is the only on that willing to container my emotions and thoughts, unfortunately just like life is forever unfair, this container can never response back. i need someone that care. i need frends that i true. i need me to be able to not be naive and go thru another misplaced heart. i need all these yet, these will all never ever be with me. i m so lost. and confused. i need a break. i need for once to be cared for real and not fer anything else.
wen will i be like anyone else. react the NORmaL way to certain situations. feel the way everyone else feels wen things happen. why am i different? and is this difference making things hard for me. i dunnoe. i seriously dunnoe. i have just bruised myself literally and the scars are all so bad. hmmz wonder why did i ever had to inflict pain on myself to rid of anger? hmmz now wat? no skirt fer the time being i guess. how lame manz. this holiday isnt as great as i expected it to be. all my frends are on ITP. hmmz majority of them i too bz to spent time with me. soo i just simply slack at home attempting amaths question. kinda in a fix now. Desperately need amaths fer my uni but the person thats helping me can only help me till april. and i dun reallie have a back up.gee. i am in deep shit as i have alwayz been in.
currently in need for a carer.if there is even such a word. i just need some genuine care. cOz i m utterly sick fer caring fer others and not being given sub-minimal care of any sort back? why is my life this way? well maybe i made it such.
i noe some people that read my entry, mite think i wine to much. i m like an old hag.hahaz sorry but i just cant help it. i have no one to spurt all these nonsense to,so here's the best avenue i cld find. so leave with it and bear with me. not happy and find that its utter rubbish and crap and that i m over creating a dramatic sadist life approach then DUn bother reading :)
yesh yesh i noe, there are lotsa people out there with greater problems. Yup that i dun deny, infact i salute them fer being able to solve their problems. As for me, these problems are already pressing enuf, but sometimes i wonder. are these problems really problems to being with. well i shall ponder and ponder. and on top of it worry tOO..coz someone hasnt switched on his phone. wonder what happened. since last nite. well lets just wait and c.
Oh ya. i miss u alot. but i come to realise that maybe there nothing left at all. i will carry on caring but i guess maybe this is wat its all meant to be.hahaz since wen was life ever fair to me. well just hOpe and wish that the next time round, i wont be thrown into the basket labelled "unlucky" wen love angel strikes again. just a tiny little wish. hahaz but then again.WhO ever listens to all these wishes? hahaz Life...not blaming you.but just applauding at the wonders of it.
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Like An Angel
Sunita- lil princess. craves to be happy and successful.complexed.lovable.
"i dont know much,but i know i love you, and that will be all there is to know"BR>
Look at the stars, and not the reflection of the moon.
